It’s strange how a single event can change your life forever. Everybody will sooner or later live through a moment that he/she will remember as the day something changed forever. For some it’s something like their wedding day, or the day their first child was born. For others it’s the day when they moved out, finished university or school, or got news that would turn everything upside down…

For me this day is the 3rd of February 2011. The day when i realized that cancer is nothing that only old people suffer from. That cancer is not only something people have on TV when Doctor House is bitching around. It’s the day when a doctor took me aside to tell me i have it, too.

So before you all freak out now, i’m not planning to reactivate my blog to write news about the end of my life. The type of cancer i have is nowadays really well treatable and I will most probably live a long and happy life ever after. I’m also in a really early stage which even more increases the odds in my favor.

But the next months will definitely change me and my life. It already started as i will not return to my job in Bucharest. But also with the decision to not make a big deal out of it, or to keep it a secret. Sooner or later people will gossip or be able to see what’s going on anyway. So i decided to write about it to give myself some distraction and maybe some hope to people in a similar situation.

So far, the last 4 days were already… well what should i say… intense? I went through ultrasound, CT and X-ray to finally end up being cut open in the first surgery of my life. Guess there will be a lot “first time of my life” type of sentences to be written down here in the next weeks.

So what’s next? Hopefully tomorrow i will have the last diagnostic examinations (first time of my life they put a needle in my hips and drill a hole in my bones, yeah!) and then i hope i will come home for the weekend to celebrate my birthday with my family.

After that i will start my treatment with a chemo therapy, switch to a long distance relationship for a while and most definitely get rid of some bad habits like smoking and drinking and so.

I wrote this maybe 3 hours after i got the big news. I yet didn’t decide if i will really publish this, especially since it will eventually pop up on Facebook… Let’s see how i feel about it tomorrow.

Meanwhile I could leave the hospital and I will be home for my birthday. The doctors all wished me luck, but also gave me hope for what’s coming next. I already have an appointment for thursday at the institute for oncology in Karlsruhe. So we’ll gonna kick the shit out of the cancer pretty soon, to quote one of my very best friends

Right now i feel sorry that I left Romania without being able to say good bye to all the people I would have liked to. But we’ll definitely will catch up with that, as i mean good bye as in “Auf Wiedersehen!”